What a
beautiful weekend. The glorious weather seems to have lifted everyone’s spirits
and I have definitely seen a new enthusiasm especially in the garden. But more
of that later. I’ll get my confessional moan out of the way first :)
This last
week has been a challenge for me in lots of ways. It has got me thinking about
the kind of thoughts I have and how they impact on the way I feel. I have
actually had a fantastic week at work – done things that have put me outside my
comfort zone and been thrilled with the results. I have run training on my own,
organised team days, led meetings and started all manner of new projects. Outside
of work I even managed a lovely night out with DH, a meal and trip to the
cinema. BUT.... I did make one mistake. Admittedly it was a fairly big one but
it was dealt with and sorted and I owned up and made good. So, why did this one
thing overshadow the rest of all the good stuff that happened this week? I have
had to actually force myself to recognise all the positives and yet still this
one negative kept jumping up and waving its little arms, shouting “don’t’ forget the stuff up! Don’t forget the
mistake you made!” This has had a huge impact on everything else. I have felt
bad, eaten too much, didn’t make the effort to go to the gym, watched too much TV
and generally wallowed in self pity.
So this
morning I decided enough was enough. I was up early, at the gym for opening
time then came home via the allotment so I could admire the work that DH did
there yesterday while I wallowed. Hooray for rotavators! Once home I did a few
yoga stretches to clear my mind (note to self, do not do this in the same room
as a teenager watching Pewdie Pie videos) and gave myself a stern talking to. I
then vowed to spend the day doing nourishing and positive things. DH and I went
for a long walk across the fields to check how our beehives have fared
overwinter. There honestly is nothing like nature to put you in a better frame
of mind. All the budding leaves and wildlife. We saw butterflies, bugs, herons,
buzzards, rabbits, so many things. And to make it even better it would appear
that two hives still have signs of bees. This was totally unexpected as we
thought we had lost them all. We won’t peek inside just yet but the signs are
good! Later we will make our lists of seeds for the allotment and garden. I
love this part of the year, all the promise of good things to come :)
Busy little bees - not that you can see them here! |
To finish
off the day I have a meal with the whole family planned and then I am going to
settle down with a glass of something nice and lose myself in the world of Mr
Selfridge for a hour. After that? Bed and positive thoughts of all the good
things I have to be grateful for. And “meh” to the odd mistakes that I might
make along the way.....
Oh, you have bees! How wonderful!
ReplyDeleteYes! Time will tell how many and how well the colonies have survived overwinter :) We have been keeping bees for about 4 years now, we don't get much honey but it's enough to keep us going!
ReplyDeleteI can empathize as I do this, too, at times - allow one mistake or "failure" to overshadow all the good things. I think we're taught to always focus on the negative or what needs to be fixed. It's a good pattern to release and unlearn. Great blog!
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